the hardest thing i ever had to do - 2004-08-08 1:47 a.m.

jnet and i broke up over a month ago. we were together for four years and a month or two.

why? i dunno. we had to, i guess. we were both miserable, and it seemed like the only option was to spend some time apart. i can't really explain it. all i can say is that it's the worst feeling in the world to love someone, and to have them love you back, and to know you can't be together, even though you both want to.

we both found roommates and new places to live, and a friend of ours is taking our apartment.

tonight will be our last night living together. i'm glad we have so much packing to do, cause i wouldn't be able to sleep anyway.

i don't want to move. i want to take back everyhting that was said and done over the last month. i wish this was a bad dream.